Friday, October 10, 2008

Resolution

I have recently decided to be a better mother.

Yesterday Isaac and I blew bubbles. It has been way too long since I've done that. I watched Isaac run around, eyes lit up, trying to catch them and being disappointed when he actually did. The bubbles were beautiful: crystal clear, sparkly, reflecting every color of the rainbow. I felt like the hopes for my children were being whisked around on the warm breeze, weightless as a sigh.

I spend too much time on things that don't matter.

Laundry.

My floor.

The internet.

Books.

I want to make cookies more. I want to celebrate each holiday with a silly craft that we'll throw away within a week, but it will be fun to do. I want to wrestle with my boys more often. On my unmade bed. I want to talk to them - have conversations with their mispronounced words and random topics.

But being a good mommy takes planning. And time. I'm going to work on both.

This is a big deal, people. I'm turning a very heavy page.

4 comments:

heidizinha said...

did you just post last week about how you're an compulsive cleaner?

good luck sister! isn't it all true? balance, balance, balance.

Mommadj5 said...

You are a TERRIFIC mom - (way better than I ever was!), just be willing to drop what you're doing when the fun stuff pops up. You can't plan the precious moments (although I know what you mean about "planning" the crafts and such). Choosing to spend time with your kids takes a conscious effort to PUT THE BROOM DOWN and laugh with them. Easier said than done - I applaud your efforts to be there for them - you will not regret it. Like Heidi says - try to find a balance so your house does not drive you crazy either:-)! If you get this figured out let me know how you did it!!! Love you bunches.

Mommadj5 said...

Had to add something else - sorry. Excuse me but laundry, books, clean house etc. DO matter!! Just not as much as the kids - but don't belittle the time spent doing things that are necessary to run a household and keep you happy. Ok, now I'm done...

Jan said...

I love the way you think. And your resolutions are wonderful. You go girl.